Unstable

Unstable.
Never thought I'd see the day that I'd become unable
Unable to create what i want to feel
Instead I'm persuaded by something that seems unreal
Unreal to the people that surround me
But those who know me can see how this lack of stabilization binds me
Its more real then you know, I watch as its dark roots grow
Clasping so tightly, causing swinging ever so slightly into sways that confine me
Sadness, anger, and guilt stronger then I've ever felt
As I try to live with these cards I am dealt
I fall to often and I fall so hard
This black pit of misery has left me scarred
It tries to heal over but the wound is to fresh
At times i gain hope as the tissue begins to mesh
But the hope is shattered and flesh pulls apart
Because you felt so inclined to break my heart.
-Cooper Swenson