Wanderings

It's a challenge to get out
Don't want to put the cap on
Bombarded by doubt
Just let it run until my life's gone
Day to day occurrence
Stumbling with no assurance
The necessary endurance
Is being swept away by loveless currents
Seems so easy to do
Then I think about my family
The things it would put them through
So I get myself out
I strive to put the cap on
Scarred deep in my brain
These thoughts will never be gone
I'm tempted by this selfish route
Filled with anger and self doubt
Here I am enduring to the end
Because until that day these wounds wont mend

Infliction

No hope for the future
Because I'm tearing out the sutures
Mental wounds so fresh
I'll carry these scars till death
Controlled by prescriptions
No, not from addiction
I anxiously await
The things my mind creates
Creating unlikely situations
That cause mental irritation
I need rehabilitation
for my mental miss communication
I cant seem to let go
And let myself grow
But I got to keep going
And keep my weakness from showing
Because after all
This is a test to stand tall
I can tell you I've fallen
And found myself crawling
But it's self inflected
By Satan's grip I'm constricted
I've got to keep my eyes up
Remembering whose blood fills that cup
We're ethereal beings
Don't let darkness keep you from seeing
We all have potential
And that's not confidential
So please be believing
In these words I'm conceiving