Wanderings

It's a challenge to get out
Don't want to put the cap on
Bombarded by doubt
Just let it run until my life's gone
Day to day occurrence
Stumbling with no assurance
The necessary endurance
Is being swept away by loveless currents
Seems so easy to do
Then I think about my family
The things it would put them through
So I get myself out
I strive to put the cap on
Scarred deep in my brain
These thoughts will never be gone
I'm tempted by this selfish route
Filled with anger and self doubt
Here I am enduring to the end
Because until that day these wounds wont mend