Dimming

Hello, it has been quite some time sense I have posted anything. But do to a lot of built up emotions and such, I have vomited. I just wanna say I don't write these for pity or for attention. It's just therapeutic when I need to say what I'm feeling, for some reason putting it down on paper (virtual paper) helps release negativity. But here it is.


A rock and a hard place
These feelings hid behind my stone cold face
A constant battle of second guessing
 My sanity these thoughts are molesting
Unsure of the influences
Is it powered by guilt, or am I intuitive
Am I being provided with guidance in my life
Or am I being bombarded to cause me strife
The past is the past but I can't seem to let go
My goal of progression has come to a slow
Trying to stay afloat while being tied down with boulders
The glow within me dims as the flame subsides to smolder
I feel out of control and can't turn the dials
 In a downward spin that has lasted for miles
Where is the improvement, where is the light
I feel I've slipped into a lifelong night.